yes, I'm not a good leader... I can't lead well, I can't organize well. Sometimes I'm too naive, I think that everything can be learnt. I'm not as smart as others, so I doubled up my efforts. But who will see it? Who will appreciate it? My efforts seems to be useless, what for I try so hard?? It's proven that no matter how much effort you've put in, sometimes you won't get what you want. Fine, just accept the fate.